by Karla ° Monday, September 22, 2008
I’m home for a brief second to splash some water over the bleary purple sacks that are my eyes and pack my bags for an undetermined stay at the hospital.

After getting no sleep last night listening to the increasingly worsening sounds of Nate’s laboured breathing, I took him to the Emergency Room at 4:00 AM this morning. In the span of 12 hours, he has had seven ventolin mask treatments and the little veins in his hands still turn a frightening shade of purple-blue if his lungs are not being assisted with additional oxygen.

He’s in isolation right now; his struggling lungs being assisted with a haphazardly taped-to-the-face oxygen nose prong, his tiny body immobilized by the too-short tubes of an IV drip, and his face covered with a ventolin mask every hour, on the hour.

I never expected Motherhood to be easy by any stretch of the imagination, and there's a lot that I don't know, but the penetrating fear piercing through the clear blue innocence of Nate’s eyes is something that will haunt me forever. This I know for certain.

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I'm praying for strength for your little man. And for you too as you stand by his side.
Posted by Anonymous Amanda :  September 22, 2008

Oh god Karla - I hope he improves quickly, I hope they figure out what is wrong, I hope you are home soon.
Posted by Anonymous Anonymous :  September 22, 2008

My thoughts are with you and your family.
Posted by Blogger kirida :  September 22, 2008

Oh Karla, I am so sorry. Sending lots of get-well wishes Nate's way, and lots of strength and courage for you and Mark. Nate knows you're there, and the love he surely feels from you will get him through. Keep us posted. Hugs.
Posted by Blogger Megan :  September 22, 2008

Oh Karla, good vibes being sent north! Thinking of you all...
Posted by Blogger Gina :  September 22, 2008

My prayers and thoughts with your family.
Posted by Blogger Donna :  September 22, 2008

Karla and Mark I am not much for words but I am just across the street. I have been thing about the little guy all day today. If you need anthing give me a call.
Posted by Anonymous John :  September 22, 2008

I'm so sorry you are going through this. My thoughts are with you and your family. I hope that Nate gets better soon.

OMG your family has been through sooo much. All the best for a quick recovery and some answers as to why this is happening
Posted by Anonymous Anonymous :  September 22, 2008

I'm hoping he gets well very soon. I know you must be scared, Karla. I'm sorry he's going through this, and I'm sorry you have to feel this way. Hugs from South Carolina.
Posted by Blogger Julia :  September 22, 2008

Oh my! Thinking of you all.

wishing Nate a speedy recovery.
*hugs and prayers*
Posted by Anonymous canadiantania :  September 22, 2008

I'll keep him in my prayers tonight...

I can only imagine how hard this must be for you guys.
Posted by Blogger joyce :  September 22, 2008


Hope Nate is better soon, can't imagine how worrisome this is for you and how scary for Nate! Have the figured out what is wrong??
Posted by Anonymous Kelly :  September 22, 2008

So sorry to hear he is still having problems. Ill keep him in my prayers and hope for a speedy recovery.
Posted by Blogger Heather :  September 22, 2008

Covering you all with good thoughts... Hang in there, one hour at a time, one doctor's opinion a time, one treatment at a time. You will get through this. If I could parachute onto your lawn with a casserole, I so would.


I am thinking of you and Nate. I hope he gets better soon. So very scary. I am praying he has a speedy recovery.


Posted by Blogger TBG :  September 22, 2008

I'm thinking of you and Mark and especially Nate during this crappy time. I hope he makes a speedy recovery. :)
Posted by Blogger Alison :  September 22, 2008

Thoughts and prayers with you, Nate and Mark.
Posted by Anonymous Amy :  September 22, 2008

i have knots in my stomach after reading this post.
my thoughts are with the 3 of you. i hope with all my heart he gets well soon.
Posted by Blogger Cheryl :  September 23, 2008

I wish I could say the right things or wave a wand and Nate would be past this...but I can't and the only thing I can do is send my very best thoughts and pray for all three of you. Please lean on any support you have, and don't keep it all inside. Take it minute to minute, and push for what you feel is right, listen to your mommy instincts.
Posted by Anonymous Shannon :  September 23, 2008

Oh, no, not again. Thought he was past the worst part. We are thinking of you and your family, Karla...
Posted by Blogger Carly :  September 23, 2008

Motherhood can be hard, esp when you see your child in pain or terrified. We would switch places with them in a heartbeat if we could. Keep strong for your baby!
Posted by Anonymous Conni :  September 23, 2008

Blessings to you and little Nate.
Posted by Blogger Heather :  September 23, 2008

I'm so sorry. I can't even imagine how hard this has been for you and your family. My heart goes out to you in the most sincere way, and I am praying very hard that Nate gets to go home soon.

I'm so sorry to hear that Nate is poorly again. Sending big hugs to you all and praying for Nate's speedy recovery.
Amanda x
Posted by Blogger Amanda :  September 23, 2008

I hope Nate gets feeling better shortly and you are home soon. That is so scary!
Posted by Anonymous Anonymous :  September 23, 2008

Oh my gosh, praying for all of you, hang in there Karla! Being a mom...hardest job ever.
Posted by Anonymous Kami :  September 23, 2008

My heart hurts for you. I'll say a prayer for you all.

Let us know he is OK!
Posted by Anonymous Anonymous :  September 23, 2008

Thoughts and prayers are with you.

Teresa Q
Posted by Anonymous Anonymous :  September 23, 2008

Oh Karla. No words. Just know I'm thinking of you and your family
Posted by Anonymous Susan :  September 23, 2008

Oh, Karla. I'm thinking of you and sending all the warm and positive thoughts I can your way. xoxo.

My prayers are with you and your family.

Oh, my heart goes out to you, Nate, and your husband. My thoughts are with you all for a short hospital stay and a quick recovery for Nate.

Keep us updated as you can - you know we're thinking about you!
Posted by Blogger AudreyC :  September 23, 2008

Thinking of you all at this time karla ~ I hope that little Nate will be back home with you soon ~
Sending love and big hugs XXXXXX
Posted by Blogger Tabitha :  September 23, 2008

I am praying for you and Mr. Nate. You need anything blog and we will make sure you get it.

Love you
Posted by Blogger Duchess :  September 23, 2008

He's tough and he's going to be fine. We're all pulling for him and thinking of your family.
Posted by Blogger Dawn :  September 23, 2008

Praying for Nate, you and your husband.
Posted by Blogger Tachaé :  September 23, 2008

I have been lurking on this site for almost 2 years now and have never posted before. Nate and my son Lucian share the same birthday of 12/22/06 and I know the gut wrenching agony of having your baby poked and prodded and feeling like you're lost while all this is happening. I hope he gets better soon and that you are able to cope as best as you can with the stress and the worry. I just had twin boys in July and one was in the NICU for 11 days, so I know the worry and fear that you have. Please know that people care about your family and will be there for support.
Posted by Anonymous Mama Laura :  September 23, 2008

Wishing for some kind of update...
Posted by Anonymous Anonymous :  September 23, 2008

not again!!! POOR LIL GUY!! well as always I'm thinking of u guys
Posted by Blogger rachael :  September 23, 2008

i hope yoy dont feel alone...
as you are not....
sending prayers
Posted by Anonymous uumomma :  September 23, 2008

Man, that just pulls at my heartstrings....

My little boy developed pneumonia at birth and when he sees pics of him in the NICU, he talks to me about not being able to breath, as if he remembers it. I completely remember the rib cage being caved in while he tried to breath.

I hope your little man is better fast!!
Posted by Blogger Candi :  September 23, 2008

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

Posted by Blogger Finelly :  September 24, 2008

I think Nate must be doing okay everyone. Mark seems to be posting as regularly as yesterday on Untangling Fitness, so am sure things are working out just fine. Hugs to the whole family!
Posted by Anonymous Anonymous :  September 24, 2008


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