Dear Nate
by Karla ° Friday, December 29, 2006

Dear Nate

You are officially one week old today and I awoke this morning in a bleary haze of astonishment that you have actually finally arrived safe and sound into my arms. Your gentle face has cast new light on my soul and your sweet blue eyes, so wide open and so full of luminous hope, makes me tingle from my head down to my toes. I want to absorb every last precious thing about you from the dimply creases of your neck to the darling little faux hawk you’re sporting on your head.

I can sit for hours and stare in a mesmerized trance of bewilderment at you. When I hold you in my arms I want nothing more than for you to feel all the love that I have inside of me wrapping you in warmth, safety and love.

Feeling the softness of your baby skin next to is like receiving a bucket overflowing with Babylon and promised bliss. You are truly the greatest gift ever and your arrival fulfills the dream that is closest to my heart, and that is to cherish, cradle and nurture you with all of the motherly love that has been building inside of me since the day you were conceived.

Because of you my dear baby Nate, I am now a firm believer in innocence and magic once again.

Welcome home my love.

Love Mommy

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I cannot begin to imagine the long road this has been for you. I am so over joyed for you and Mark. I couldn't have wanted anything so badly for someone I don't even know. Nate is incredibly cute. I am so,so happy he is home in your arms. Enjoy every moment, as I know you will.
Posted by Anonymous Donna :  December 29, 2006

This same ole Southern Belle is STILL leaving tears on her keyboard! I have truely never been so overcome with emotions for a complete stranger, WORDS can't express how happy I am for you! My lil ole size 5 feet are still DOIN THE SNOOPY DANCE!!! What a BEAUTIFUL son you have there. Reminds me of my beautiful son 23 years ago, well minus the faux-hawk..he wasn't that lucky he was BALD!! Seems like yesterday he was born and now he is in the United States Navy! Cherish EVERY moment they grow like STINK WEED! many blessings and prayers for you and your family!
Posted by Anonymous Anonymous :  December 29, 2006

Like the ladies above have mentioned, I also cannot explain how happy I am for both you and Mark and I have never had the pleasure of meeting either of you. Honestly, following your blog and reading your journey has opened my eyes and my heart in more ways than you will ever know.

I am so very happy that you have finally been blessed with a beautiful baby boy to love and hold for the rest of your life. He is absolutely precious, and everything I pictured him to be.

I am so happy for you guys, there are no amount of words or exclamation marks that can show the amount happiness I feel for you. I know I've said that in previous comments, but every word I've typed comes from the bottom of my heart and is 100% true.
Posted by Blogger Melanie :  December 29, 2006


Someday that boy is going to realize just how blessed he is to have parents who love him so.

I'm amazed also, that you can write so beautifully while sleep deprived!
Posted by Blogger Judy :  December 29, 2006

Amazing how a new place opens in our hearts for each new baby.

If anyone is deserving of the miraculous gift of a sweet baby, it is you and Mark. I am sure that little boy is blissfully enjoying each snuggle with momma.
Posted by Blogger Deborah :  December 29, 2006

Both Nate and your entry are beautiful.

I am so glad that you have your family and that you have been reintroduced to innocence and magic :)
Posted by Anonymous Ashley :  December 29, 2006

Babies do bring the magic with them don't they? I could see eternity in my children's eyes during the first week of their lives. I was as if I was looking at an old soul who could look right into mine!

As I read your blog I re-live coming home with my first Christmas baby and all the warm and wonderful memories of that time. Magic, pure magic.

Those first few days sure had their problems, and I didn't think I would ever sleep again, but those sleepless nights do pass quickly and your energy does return - it does! Enjoy to the fullest this precious time with your wee bundle.
Posted by Blogger Cuppa :  December 29, 2006

Sigh... Now I have a big, goofy grin on my face!
Posted by Blogger Julia :  December 29, 2006

Oh that little mouth! Looks like his mama's. I continue to be sitting high on a cloud of gratitude that the world has demonstrated that there can be happy endings (beginnings). It makes me smile to think of you burying your face in that little ole faux hawk and just breathing that little creature in. Enjoy!
Posted by Blogger Amanda :  December 29, 2006

He is so adorable! I love his hair :-) I'm so glad you're still posting, as we all want to see the little gorgeous miracle you and hubby have created!! Again, congrats :-)
Posted by Blogger Arlene :  December 29, 2006

This is really great. People all over are so happy for you.

He is absolutely perfect! Congrats guys!:-)
Posted by Blogger Renee :  December 29, 2006

Karla he is magnificint! What a fabulous gift you have received. I could not be happier for you and Mark! Nate is a lucky little boy to have such loving parents.
Posted by Blogger TBG :  December 29, 2006

That is beautiful. I still write letters to my son who is almost 7 years old in hopes that one day when I am no longer hear he will be able to look back and read what I have written and know that I loved him more then life it's self. I am so incrediably happy for you & Mark and beyond thrilled that Nate is home & that he is healthy!!

Again with the GOOSEBUMPS.
Karla, we are so happy for you and Mark. I dream everyday for the wonderful experience you two are having with your new arrival. It must be so fulfilling. Thank you for always sharing.
Posted by Blogger Samantha :  December 29, 2006

What a face! I'm so happy for you! He is so lucky to have a momma like you. I just don't know what I could possibly say that the others haven't already, but I wanted you to know that one more person was rooting for you and your husband and that sweet little boy. Words can't express what I am feeling for you all.
Posted by Blogger Jules :  December 29, 2006

You know what, I firmly believe that they do indeed feel all that love we channel into their little bodies. How could they not?

Nathan is just beautiful, and I am so happy for you that your dreams have been fulfilled.

Told you the juju would work! ;)
Posted by Blogger Gina :  December 29, 2006

Karla, he is so cute. What a gorgeous gift. You have written this so beautifully. You need to put all this together in a book. You are such a gifted writer.
Posted by Blogger Kate :  December 29, 2006

I cannot add to what has already been said. I can only say that I think I know how you feel, looking into the eyes of your newborn son. Congratulations. I am so happy for you and Mark.
Posted by Blogger Linda :  December 29, 2006

Girl, there you go again making me cry.
That was the most beautiful post.

I can so understand what you are feeling. The moment you hold that life in your hands, that you and your husband have created together, just fills your heart with such joy and love.
Enjoy ever moment of it. It is the greatest feeling in the world.

Karla, He is so cute. I wish I could hold him. It makes me want another one.
Posted by Blogger Tammy :  December 29, 2006

He is just beautiful! :)



I am so happy for you! That is a beautiful letter, a beautiful boy, and a beautiful mom! I think that he looks a lot like you in that picture, so cute! Congrats again!
Posted by Blogger Amber :  December 29, 2006


Through your hope, grace, and eloquence, you've also renewed part of my own hope in magic.

This makes me so incredibly happy.

A million congrats. Again.
Posted by Anonymous Kristin :  December 29, 2006

What a perfect and divine baby boy. He has that glorious wise look that so many new babies have. They seem to know everything when they first arrive. Congratulations.

Now. You. Know.
Isn't it just incredible?
Congratulations doesn't seem adequate. My heart swells for you and your family.
PS - There's ABSOLUTELY NOTHING wrong with sitting for hours with him against your skin while you memorize his face and features and smells....that's what new mommies do. Let the rest of the world take care of the other things. You'll know when the time to tend to those other things comes. For now...feel that skin, soak in that smell and memorize the seconds.

Here's to all the roads that you have let your journey begin.

I just can not explain how happy I am for you. You have a very cute baby boy!! Take all the time you need/want to cuddle up and enjoy your little man.
Posted by Blogger Heather :  December 30, 2006

I am totally weeping reading your post. I have been away from blogging for a week and caught the news of your AMAZING nate on bloglines and have been dying to pay a visit to say a proper CONGRATULATIONS. Sorry for all the caps but I am just really so sincerely happy for you. This wonderful new addition to your family makes me smile from the inside. Enjoy every magical minute. I know you will ;)
Posted by Blogger Sandra :  December 30, 2006

Oh, that baby couldn't be more beautiful, Karla! Congratulations, darling.

To be honest, after Ava's departure, I was terrified for you and Mark during this entire pregnancy. Praying contstantly that little Nate would see more of the world than baby Ava was able to see.

I am so relieved, as I'm sure are you.

I'm proud of you, missy... enjoy that little one. From what I hear, they don't stay that way for long!
Posted by Anonymous Robyn :  December 30, 2006

Your baby boy Nate is so beautiful. Congratulations!

what a great post karla :D
Posted by Blogger rachael :  December 31, 2006


I just red your story, and it is so heart breaking!
I have lost someone very close also, and to see that you found peace again, warms my heart.

Your baby-boy Nathan is very cute, and he will be a handsome little man when he grows up!

Take care!

Love from Norway
Posted by Anonymous Anonymous :  July 19, 2007

You really like making me cry, don't you Karla?

I can't wait til Nate can read and understand that.. although.. all he has ever known is your unwaivering love, this letter is never going to come as a shock to him. You are awesome.

I really hope I can write a letter like this one day.

Tasmania Alison. Hehe.
Posted by Anonymous Alison :  January 27, 2008


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