untanglingknots.com: In Remembrance

by Karla ° Monday, October 2, 2006

In 1988, President Reagan proclaimed October as “Pregnancy and Infant Loss Month” in the USA. Today however, many cities across North America hold a Walk to Remember to memorialize the brief, but significant lives of our babies.

On Sunday, my husband and I attended such a walk. The skies fittingly obliged to the atmosphere of heavily somber emotions by opening the floodgates and unleashing an overflow of tears from above.

We stood amidst the breezy chill of October rain and watched as four delicate porcelain white baskets of doves were set free in a fleeting symbol of peace, gentleness and purity.

I’m glad we went and I’m grateful for my memories of Ava.

I will always remember her.

Labels: Grief and Loss, In Memory of Ava, Video

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Beautiful .... and heart-breaking. Thank you for sharing those precious moments with us.

Posted by Joanna : October 02, 2006

I will always remember her too.

Posted by Anonymous : October 02, 2006

Oh Karla, way to make me cry at work! That video is amazing.

Posted by Heather Plett : October 02, 2006

Karla I dont think anyone will ever forget Ava! She will always remember the love of her mama and daddy!

Thank you for sharing Ava with us!

Posted by Kate Giovinco Photography : October 02, 2006

That was a BEAUTIFUL video. It brought many tears to my eyes. Ava IS and always will be unforgettable. I love the way it began with you and Mark singing to her...what a memory to cherish. JUST BEAUTIFUL

Posted by Patyrish : October 02, 2006

I will always remember her too.
Love and hugs from my heart to yours.

Posted by Cuppa : October 02, 2006

Oh my God. Me too!

Posted by The Passarelli's : October 02, 2006

I am so sorry for your loss. Sweet Ava is in my thoughts and will be forever etched in my mind.

I am so glad you were able to try again. You will be happy you did.

Posted by Finelly : October 02, 2006

God bless her, and you... I need a kleenex.. Let me know if you're ever going through Innisfil and want to pop in for a hello. :)

Posted by NegZero : October 02, 2006

I'm at a loss for words. I don't know you and just recently came across your story through a fellow blooger. Watching that video brought tears to my eyes. I can't imagine the pain you must of gone through and I'm sure are still going through. I also can't believe the great strength you have show just by continuing to share Ava's story with us. It's trully amazing. My thoughts and prayers are with you as you prepare to bring a new little miracle into the world.

Posted by Anonymous : October 02, 2006

Oh Karla, thank you for sharing something so personal. How beautiful. As is Ava.

She only knew love.

I will never forget her.

Judy - www.judyh58.blogspot.com

Posted by Anonymous : October 02, 2006

Karla, that was beautiful.

Posted by Unknown : October 02, 2006

What a beautiful and moving tribute.

Hold on to those memories. She is a beautiful girl, and certainly unforgettable.

Posted by Alyssa : October 02, 2006

Karla, I don't know you, and I never had the privilege of meeting your beautiful daughter, but I honestly feel like the world is a better place because she was here.

Posted by Anonymous : October 03, 2006

Thank You for sharing. You are such a strong woman. I am so angry that this has to happen to anyone. I am sobbing, I am angry that I ever get angry at my kids, I am so blessed, yet sometimes don't appreciate it. Your story has touched so many, and so mnay will mever forget Ava.

I have a question, if you don't mind answering. As I watched the video and saw all the stuff you had prepared for Ava. Will you box it and keep for memories or use it for your little boy? I just wonder what. I think I would be one to lock the room up and keep it as a shrine of some kind.

By the way your are seriously the cutest pregnat woman ever!

Donna
I switched to Beta account and amhaving trouble signing in??

Posted by Anonymous : October 03, 2006

What a blessing to be a part of something so beautiful! Ava will always be alive to many of us, because she is alive in your heart -- she is a part of you!

Posted by Unknown : October 03, 2006

I am at a loss for words.
This video is amazing, beautiful, yet so very heart-wrenching. I cannot hold back my tears.

Thank you for sharing this video with us Karla.

I will always remember Ava.

Posted by Melanie : October 03, 2006

Karla,

I almost never comment on anyone's blog. I don't know you and only started reading your blog a few months ago. I was immediatly drawn here because I lost twin girls who were born at 22 weeks and then died the next day due to Twin to Twin Transfusion Syndrome so I could/can so relate to what you have been through and are currently going through with a pregnancy after a loss.

That video was so beautiful and heartwarming. I am still crying about it because it also reminded me of how much I miss my babies. My babies would have been a little over 2 now. As my 7 month old son sits in my lap and tries to bang on the keyboard, I can tell you that your newest little baby will fill so much of that void that you feel when you lose a baby. You and your husband will never forget, ever. And when your little boy grows up you will tell him about the big sister he never got to meet and he will never forget about her either.

Posted by Anonymous : October 03, 2006

precious.

Posted by gina : October 03, 2006

Oh my goodness. That was the most amazing/beatufil/heart renching video I've seen in a LONG time.
You are an amazing and stong woman Karla.

Posted by Anonymous : October 03, 2006

The whole time all I could think was, "What a perfect little girl." She'll stay that way forever.

Posted by Christi : October 03, 2006

Wow, that was really a beautiful video. I cried through the whole thing, but it was really sweet. God Bless you both, she was just beautiful.

Posted by Pixie : October 03, 2006

I love it! thanks for sharing ur memories and video of Ava

Posted by Unknown : October 03, 2006

I just watched that again, and I just wanted to send another big hug your guys way... I really wish I could have met her.. :(

Posted by NegZero : October 03, 2006

speechless. tearful. honored that I got to view your precious and special video tribute to your beautiful daughter's brief life. That was amazing. What a tribute to her and to you and your husband. Moving. Truly moving. I can't say it enough. I am at work and everything stopped when I watched that video. I truly hope that some of that empty space inside will be filled by the precious new life inside you. I cannot begin to know what you have gone through and are going through. I just wanted to say thanks for sharing that wonderful video. I enjoy reading your blog and I'll be back.

Posted by Dana a/k/a Sunshine : October 04, 2006

Ava has touched so many lives, none of us will ever forget her!

((Karla))

Posted by Gina : October 04, 2006

bawled my eyes out. your daughters life just moved me.

Posted by Bek : October 20, 2006

I don't know you but i stumbled across your amazingly beautiful video of your daughter Ava while on youtube. I have kept your blog in my favourites because i found that video to be one of the most moving things i have ever had the privilege of viewing. I find you to be so articulate and your blogs are fascinating to read even though they are about your everyday life and i am a stranger all the way from australia. thank you

Posted by Anonymous : January 05, 2008

I stumbled across your beautiful video of your daughter Ava while on youtube and just wanted to say it is the most moving piece of viewing i have ever had the privilege of watching. I have kept your blog in my favourites since then as i find your daily writings to be fascinating despite the fact that they are about your everyday life and i am just a stranger all the way from Australia. You are so articulate and full of love that it conveys in your blogs. Thank you

Posted by Anonymous : January 05, 2008

hah sorry i thought my first post had been lost!! oh well you get my vaguely similar message twice. thanks again!!

Posted by Anonymous : January 05, 2008

Watching this not only makes me grieve with you, but it reminds me of how precious life is. I've been blessed with two beautiful children. I can't begin to tell you how very sorry I am for your loss. Your video had me crying my eyes out.. What a beautiful baby girl who is now with her king. God bless you and your family and I thank you for sharing this beautiful video. I know no matter how much time passes its still hard at times and I will be praying for you and your husband and your little boy.

Posted by Anonymous : April 10, 2008

Oh my goodness, Karla. There are no words to describe how heartbreaking that video was. I have no idea what it feels like to lose a child, but I know it's extremely painful. I am, however, extremely happy for you and your husband for getting your beautiful boy. I know he will never stitch together your broken heart completely. But, he will help in many, many ways. God Bless You, and Your Family. I wish you many happy years with your precious son.

Posted by Anonymous : May 05, 2008

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